at first it’s all about the butterflies, any honest woman will admit it.
but i want to share something that has been burning in my heart lately,
something much bigger than butterflies & hearts skipping beats.
at some point, you will love him deeply enough to marry him,
& that is when your heart truly will change.
it is then that the butterflies will bow to something much more compelling
something both magical & painful all at once.
remember this, butterflies won’t sustain a blood covenant.
when you are looking at a man & your heart goes wild & your knees get weak.
is it because he looks like Jesus or because he thinks you’re pretty & just might kiss you?
when i first met trevor i didn’t see the man i see today,
i saw a cute, silly boy that made my heart race & dream day & night
i saw him laugh at all of my jokes & pay for every meal
i saw the way he looked at me & the worthiness that he projected onto me..
the worth i had always dreamed of obtaining,
i was what he had been looking for his whole life.
what i saw then served its perfect purpose, for my soon to be husband to capture my heart with the little things from the very beginning.
but today everything has changed and nothing is little anymore
when i look at my beloved husband, i see arms spread wide on the cross
i see a man of faithfulness & courage, ensuring my survival in both realms.
fighting for my heart daily. i see his fleshly fears bow to the name of Jesus
as he jumps into this whirlwind we call life head first, holding my hand.
i see a warrior, ready to obey his King’s every command
i see faith like a child, the faith i strive for every day he seems to have been born with.
i see the most self sacrificial soul i have ever encountered,
working twelve hours a day, seven days a week..
for me. FOR ME.
not once does he complain or quit.
why? because i am his bride, he will never quit on me.
& how amazed i even am to be able to say that about a man in full confidence.
trust me, you can become un-jaded when you marry a real man of God.
my sisters, your husband is/will be the closest thing to a physical manifestation
of Christ’s love for you on this earth.
you have a say in this, choose one worthy to walk with your royalty.
try to see past the butterflies & look deep into his character.
does he look like Jesus? or Judas?